A friend sent me this recently and the "AND" really hit me hard in the best of ways. My upbringing had black and white thinking instilled into me. Though I fought hard to say that there are gray areas, nuance, a spectrum; at my core this warped manner of looking at life still sunk in.
I'm looking back at situations, relationships, occurrences, and seeing that in every one there is an "and". Also observing where my blind spots are that I've dug my heels in to believe there is only one reason for it all. The bigger challenge is to look inward to find what is true to who I am, what I've been told I am and where there is more to the full picture. It's not all white or all black...it's gray.
Tonight is a Scarlet Full Moon. I'm crazy about the moon and most specifically full moons. This one is said to bring the following: It seeks to liberate from the past and create a better future. It brings on change. Free thinking. Emotional surprises. Now do I really believe a moon will do these things? No. Maybe. Kinda sorta but I'm super skeptical. I like to focus on what these things point me to, where I can change and where I've stagnated. So no matter what does or doesn't happen I'm good. It's a little gray and that's OK.
A little over a week from my birthday and I'm feeling pressure. Life and the calendar are screaming that I'm almost out of time. Yes, I'm being slightly over-dramatic here but the clock is ticking. I'm going deep and doing the hard work and I will succeed. My success might not look how you'd expect but it will be what is right for me. Somewhere in the gray.
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